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Amateur by Thomas Page McBee
Shortlisted for the Baillie Gifford Prize for Nonfiction Shortlisted for the Lambda Literary Award *Shortlisted for the Wellcome Book Prize …
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Shortlisted for the Baillie Gifford Prize for Nonfiction Shortlisted for the Lambda Literary Award *Shortlisted for the Wellcome Book Prize …
For background, like many readers of this book, I'm a great fan of Josie Long as a comedian. I find her standup funny, and her politics good and genuine. I first saw her performing around 2014 at a benefit show for an anti-eviction campaign in East London, and have nurtured my friend crush ever since. Contrary to many celebrities and comedians' books, this is the book of someone who approaches writing as its own thing, and aspires to be taken at face value as a writer. By which I mean: the stories here are not merely a different format for her standup, which is a brave thing to do. They allow readers to see a different (but coherent) side of her.
Some of the stories read like well-observed vignettes. I'm not sure if that was intentional, or if maybe they needed some more developing to have a full narrative arch. …
For background, like many readers of this book, I'm a great fan of Josie Long as a comedian. I find her standup funny, and her politics good and genuine. I first saw her performing around 2014 at a benefit show for an anti-eviction campaign in East London, and have nurtured my friend crush ever since. Contrary to many celebrities and comedians' books, this is the book of someone who approaches writing as its own thing, and aspires to be taken at face value as a writer. By which I mean: the stories here are not merely a different format for her standup, which is a brave thing to do. They allow readers to see a different (but coherent) side of her.
Some of the stories read like well-observed vignettes. I'm not sure if that was intentional, or if maybe they needed some more developing to have a full narrative arch. The fact that I'm not sure is probably not a good sign. At several points, though, the book 'changes gear', offering some truly excellent stories. Some of my favourites:
2021, 20/21 - A survivor of an abusive relationship is forced to interact with her abuser, who has moved in her neighborhood with his family. Twenty years after the break-up, she can finally see the abuse for what it was, but still feels the irresistible urge to know what is going on in his life, and that of his new partner. The not-quite-irrational anxiety at the the thought she may meet him at any point, the conflicting feelings of hoping his new relationship doesn't follow the same pattern, but also not wishing him to be happy... Poets rise - A black-mirror-esque story about a woman working for a surveillance / sabotage agency that targets left-wing people, trying to break down their spirit to prevent them to engage in activism. (the next time I forget my phone code, I'll know who to blame). Poets rise again - A funny-sad story about scammers getting scammed, that is mostly about how class-based societies are the real scam. (Only now do I notice these two stories form a series).

From a comic mastermind comes this brilliant collection of stories.
Three teenagers believe they are witches. A woman defaces a …
One thing for which you cannot fault this book is not making its point clear: wealth inequalities are bad for society, and are especially outrageous when one considers the differences between the 1% and everyone else.
Each chapter looks at a different facet of the problem: education, taxes, health. Some are better than others, presumably reflecting Dorling's greater expertise and experience in some of these fields (for example, he's especially passionate and knowledgeable about education). There are a lot of figures and fun facts supporting the argument, and I wish I could impress them into my memory for future conversations, mixed in with some anecdotes and tirades that verge on the simplistic. I thought it was a great read, but maybe an editor could have cut it by ca 30%, removing secondary points and repetitions to turn it into a really sharp pamphlet that could be given also to people …
One thing for which you cannot fault this book is not making its point clear: wealth inequalities are bad for society, and are especially outrageous when one considers the differences between the 1% and everyone else.
Each chapter looks at a different facet of the problem: education, taxes, health. Some are better than others, presumably reflecting Dorling's greater expertise and experience in some of these fields (for example, he's especially passionate and knowledgeable about education). There are a lot of figures and fun facts supporting the argument, and I wish I could impress them into my memory for future conversations, mixed in with some anecdotes and tirades that verge on the simplistic. I thought it was a great read, but maybe an editor could have cut it by ca 30%, removing secondary points and repetitions to turn it into a really sharp pamphlet that could be given also to people who are not already convinced.
Some of those useful numbers and facts (even considering that the book is from 2014): * To qualify to be a member of the top 1% in the UK, you need a total household income, before tax, of about £160,000 a year - making it into the top 1 per cent in the US requires an annual income of at least $394,000. This is higher than the £160,000 in the UK because inequality in the US is greater. Getting into the top 10 per cent in the US requires an annual salary of at least $114,000 – more similar to that required to enter the UK top 10 per cent, but a little higher in real term. The average annual UK salary in 2013 was £24,596; but for the top 1 per cent their mean average was fifteen times as much: an average take-home income of £368,940.15 That is more than twice as much as the least well-off of the 1% received.
An investigation by the general practice magazine Pulse found that one in five of the GPs who sit on the boards of England’s 211 Clinical Commissioning Groups (CCGs) – the boards that decide how NHS budgets are spent locally – also had a stake in a private healthcare firm that was providing services to their own CCG.21
Among the 1%, 80% of those who are rich because of earnings (as opposed to inheritance) are men
When people try to argue that rich people are doing their share by paying more taxes, it is worth noting that the government currently collects only 26 per cent of its revenue through direct income tax. Value Added Tax and National Insurance account for 35 per cent of government revenue (which weigh more heavily on lower incomes).
On meritocracy, or rather (not unrelatedly), the extent of Boris' ignorance: <>
Set in 1986, this is the non-love story between an aging 'queen' (only known by her stage name, the Queen of the Corner) and a young Marxist rebel, Carlos. She comes from a working-class background, has survived with sex-work until another queen taught her to embroid for wealthy ladies. Now takes advantage of the general misery to get sex out of poor men in need of money, food, or shelter during the curfew. We don't learn much about Carlos, except that he genuinely comes to care for the queen, but at the same time is taking advantage of her, using her as cover-up for as he's part of a plot to assassinate Pinochet (the book is set against the backdrop of a real ambush, that left seven bodyguards dead while Pinochet managed to drive back to his villa in Cajon del Maipo). Like the queen, the book is delightfully camp, …
Set in 1986, this is the non-love story between an aging 'queen' (only known by her stage name, the Queen of the Corner) and a young Marxist rebel, Carlos. She comes from a working-class background, has survived with sex-work until another queen taught her to embroid for wealthy ladies. Now takes advantage of the general misery to get sex out of poor men in need of money, food, or shelter during the curfew. We don't learn much about Carlos, except that he genuinely comes to care for the queen, but at the same time is taking advantage of her, using her as cover-up for as he's part of a plot to assassinate Pinochet (the book is set against the backdrop of a real ambush, that left seven bodyguards dead while Pinochet managed to drive back to his villa in Cajon del Maipo). Like the queen, the book is delightfully camp, poetic and smutty, dreaming and political. I really loved it.
It must be said that the representation of cis-women is not great, verging on sexist: going from the annoying, farcically entitled wives of the military hierarchies, to the gossipy and simple-minded women from the neighbourhood.
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Ava is 22 and Irish, in Hong Kong on a TEFL job. She gets a crush on a British banker, simultaneously disgusted and charmed by his wealth and entitlement. He likes her, enjoys her company, brings her along to drinks and parties, puts her up, gives her free access to his credit card, but is not interested in being her boyfriend. While he's on a long business trip in Europe, Ava gets an even bigger crush on a Hong Kong woman lawyer. At first she dates her without telling her about him, or him about her, then she tries to be with her but keeps living with him, then she agonizes over the choice and then...spoiler alert, she probably picks him. I liked the description of bankers' expat life, and generally some snapshot of Hong Kong felt spot on. But Ava, is really too proud of being 'a weirdo', of not fitting in with the expat, of being edgy and smart and leftie. The banter got to my nerves. And the description of her coming out experience did not feel genuine - I mean, everyone is entitled to their own, but growing up in Dublin, going to university and dating a woman in Hong Kong...come on now, it could be a lot worse. I also thought the claiming of shared identity with Hong Kongers, as two people colonised by the Brits was potentially problematic, especially without addressing the fact that now Ireland is a democratic independent state, while Hong Kong is about to be swallowed by a totalitarian regime. Generally, a character's flaws don't need to be a book's flaws, but I’m afraid Naoise hasn't got enough distance from Ava to problematise these issues.
Quinto, protagonista di questa novella, é un antieroe tutto italiano, non originale ma dolorosamente riconoscibile: vagamente 'di sinistra', di famiglia benestante, ha combattuto come partigiano alla fine della guerra, ma dieci anni dopo ha perso sia la speranza che l'energia necessarie per battersi per un mondo migliore. Con i suoi amici intellettuali si sente inadeguato, incapace di seguirli nelle loro dotte discussioni piene di riferimenti a Marx e Freud, con gli ex compagni partigiani di classe operaia o contadina si sente ipocrita, vista l'attuale mancanza di interesse nelle lotte sindacali. Affascinato dalla nuova classe imprenditrice, Quinto decide di speculare su un angolo del giardino della casa materna, costruendo una palazzina di appartamenti da affittare. Ma Quinto non ha né un interesse genuino né le capacitá per avere successo nel mondo degli affari, ma non vede alternative perché questa é l'Italia di allora, e in un certo sense di oggi.

'I love you, no matter what.' This book tells the uplifting true story of an ordinary couple who build an …
Kentukis are a strange merge of Furbies, Social Media and Big Brother: little more than 'a cell phone on wheels', as one character remarks, that work as mechanical pets for their 'keepers', and as windows into another person's world for 'dwellers'. Keepers and dwellers do not receive any information about each other, and theoretically have few ways of communicating, seeing that kentukis can listen but not speak, and have no hands to write or type. But of course, human curiosity and inventiveness go a long way.
These gadgets have become a global phenomenon, from Hong Kong to Mexico, from Norway to Antigua, people become obsessed with them, fear them, experiment with them, develop businesses around them, turn them into art projects. Dwellers and keepers sometimes develop friendships, but more often than not there is something twisted about them, as one or the other becomes dominant, bullying, humiliating, blackmailing or terrifying …
Kentukis are a strange merge of Furbies, Social Media and Big Brother: little more than 'a cell phone on wheels', as one character remarks, that work as mechanical pets for their 'keepers', and as windows into another person's world for 'dwellers'. Keepers and dwellers do not receive any information about each other, and theoretically have few ways of communicating, seeing that kentukis can listen but not speak, and have no hands to write or type. But of course, human curiosity and inventiveness go a long way.
These gadgets have become a global phenomenon, from Hong Kong to Mexico, from Norway to Antigua, people become obsessed with them, fear them, experiment with them, develop businesses around them, turn them into art projects. Dwellers and keepers sometimes develop friendships, but more often than not there is something twisted about them, as one or the other becomes dominant, bullying, humiliating, blackmailing or terrifying the other.
Each pair of keeper-dweller is a story of their own, some only lasting a few pages, some running through the book. The book is quietly sinister, probably because Kentukis are not a exactly sci-fi: it is something that could exist, that almost exists. It does not take you for a rollercoaster, no profound revelation about humanity, no page-turning suspense, just the persistent feeling that something has gone awry in our relationship to technology, animals, and fellow human.
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"Parents abandon their children. Children abandon their parents. Parents protect or forsake, but they always forsake. Children stay or go but they always go."
In the first part of the book, the protagonist remembers the night following the 1985 earthquake, when he find himself, only a child, camping in the garden with his parents and neighbours, a secondary character barely aware of what has happened. It is on this night that he meets Claudia, an older girl for whom he develops a crush. Keen to please her and having a reason to meet her, he agree to spy on uncle Roberto, who is rumored to be a social democratic but, we discover later on (but suspect from the start) is actually hiding from the regime.
In the second part, we meet another protagonist: the writer who is working at the story introduced in the first part, a story that is clearly -partially auto-biographic. Like the kid in part one, the author grew up in a lower-middle class famiily in Maipú, whose political credo is not to get involved with politics, neither right nor left, 'Pinochet did a lot of horrible things, human rights violations and all, but one cannot deny that Chile has a lot to thank him for'.
From then on, the book switches between these two stories. It is a view on what I now understand to be a significant section of Chilean society, those who, without ideological fervor, accepted the dictatorship as the best of their options, and are now convinced that was a good call. And their children, many of who are horrified, and a little ashamed not to be able to claim a share of the glory that comes from having lost a grandad or an uncle to the torture centres or the extra judicial executions.
It is a very short, loving portrait of this complicated relationship, one that manages to be universal (don't all parents forsake their children, don't all children leave their parents?) and historically specific.
The first book in Spanish I read in its entirety. Zambra writes well, and is so good at observing and relating small details that make scenes come alive and give unexpected insights on a situation. Having said that, this duo of novellas was a bit too introspective for my taste, and I didn't like it as much as I had liked Ways of going home. Straight couples getting together and breaking apart.
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The title here is more truthful to the book than the marketing material: it is a book about survival more than it is a book about transitioning,I am pleasantly tipsy while writing these notes. Thomas (then Page) was abused by his father as a child, and grew up into a very masculine presenting lesbian. In their twenties, they are assaulted at gun point, and presumably saved by their feminine voice. Gender is messy, and this is experience that pushes Page to switch from passing as a man to transitioning into one. It is a well-written book, maybe at time a bit more flowery than it is my taste, but never sappy. Thomas is determined to be a good guy, and that includes recognising the humanity in the people around him, including those who abused him. I found the relationship between him and his mum worth of another book: she, forever guilty of having let the abuse happening, and he, in need to make sense of things through his own narratives, but also loving and accepting.
In this tiny book, two friends 'exchange monologues' about the pandemic. Both angry, frustrated, alienated by the lockdown. One is a journalist, writing piercing opinion pieces about government abuses and injustice. The other works, we assume, in a call centre, doing night shifts. As a kid, she survived the accident that took the lives of her mum and sister. The trauma has made her memory unreliable, causing her to confound the past, her dreams, and her present thoughts - in a daze that is brought to the extreme by her isolation and, finally, by Covid.
The two threads (the incident of the past, the pandemic today) don't really connect at a logical level, except perhaps through the notion of trauma and the loss of lucidity that often accompanies. It's angry, in a very relatable, painful, satisfying sort of way. How can a country be so fucked up? How can they …
In this tiny book, two friends 'exchange monologues' about the pandemic. Both angry, frustrated, alienated by the lockdown. One is a journalist, writing piercing opinion pieces about government abuses and injustice. The other works, we assume, in a call centre, doing night shifts. As a kid, she survived the accident that took the lives of her mum and sister. The trauma has made her memory unreliable, causing her to confound the past, her dreams, and her present thoughts - in a daze that is brought to the extreme by her isolation and, finally, by Covid.
The two threads (the incident of the past, the pandemic today) don't really connect at a logical level, except perhaps through the notion of trauma and the loss of lucidity that often accompanies. It's angry, in a very relatable, painful, satisfying sort of way. How can a country be so fucked up? How can they be so greedy and cynical? (rarely have I thought of a they with such force before moving to Chile).
In a sense, those critics who claim we are not working a fifteen-hour week because we have chosen consumerism over leisure are not entirely off the mark. They just got the mechanisms wrong. We’re not working harder because we’re spending all our time manufacturing PlayStations and serving one another sushi. Industry is being increasingly robotized, and the real service sector remains flat at roughly 20 percent of overall employment. Instead, it is because we have invented a bizarre sadomasochistic dialectic whereby we feel that pain in the workplace is the only possible justification for our furtive consumer pleasures, and, at the same time, the fact that our jobs thus come to eat up more and more of our waking existence means that we do not have the luxury of — as Kathi Weeks has so concisely put it — “a life,” and that, in turn, means that furtive consumer pleasures are the only ones we have time to afford. Sitting around in cafés all day arguing about politics or gossiping about our friends’ complex polyamorous love affairs takes time (all day, in fact); in contrast pumping iron or attending a yoga class at the local gym, ordering out for Deliveroo, watching an episode of Game of Thrones, or shopping for hand creams or consumer electronics can all be placed in the kind of self-contained predictable time-slots one is likely to have left over between spates of work, or else while recovering from it. All these are examples of what I like to call “compensatory consumerism.” They are the sorts of things you can do to make up for the fact that you don’t have a life, or not very much of one.
I loved this book so much! I found it entertaining and inspiring, personally (yes, I don't want to be stuck in a bullshit job, I want to think about what it's valuable and why and try to do it; see [*]), politically (hell yes, this system is fucked up, and all the moralising about work is very convenient for some) as well as professionally (I want to write like this about non-bullshit research).
The theory in a nutshell is that a larger and larger proportion of jobs, and especially white-collar jobs, are bullshit because they contribute nothing to society: they don't even make companies richer, but are simply the product of apathia or vanity. On a larger scale, this has happened because we are no longer living in a classic capitalist system, where capitalists 'control the means of production', but rather in a neo-feudal system, where political and economic elites …
I loved this book so much! I found it entertaining and inspiring, personally (yes, I don't want to be stuck in a bullshit job, I want to think about what it's valuable and why and try to do it; see [*]), politically (hell yes, this system is fucked up, and all the moralising about work is very convenient for some) as well as professionally (I want to write like this about non-bullshit research).
The theory in a nutshell is that a larger and larger proportion of jobs, and especially white-collar jobs, are bullshit because they contribute nothing to society: they don't even make companies richer, but are simply the product of apathia or vanity. On a larger scale, this has happened because we are no longer living in a classic capitalist system, where capitalists 'control the means of production', but rather in a neo-feudal system, where political and economic elites coincide: people get richer by appropriating, distributing and controlling resources (i.e. politics in its classical definition), not by producing.